I just had a fire.

Yes, a fire. .. the kind that happens while you're cooking.. the element explodes, and the entire stove is covered in flames.

I'm so shaken up. I managed to get it out, yes.. but, I'm still so terrified. Fire is one of my biggest fears. I'm in shock. I'm not even articulating as well as I usually do, because I'm so shocked.. god.. oh man..

I fell into a deep depression after I got the fire out..
I was okay before that.. but now I'm in a horrible, self-destructive mood. I won't even go into the extent of how I feel. I don't want to scare you all.

I think I'll go have a hot bath.. WITHOUT candles.. and have a good cry.. and try to comfort myself somehow..